I had a daydream today. It was a weird one. No idea where it came from. I wasn't thinking of anything that caused it, it just popped into my head out of the blue. I was walking, still cognizant of my surroundings, where I was, buildings, cars, people places so I didn't bump into things/people, get run over, walk in the wrong direction, or miss where I wanted to stop at, but I had my headphones off and I had a daydream. It's like a dream when I am sleeping except I am awake and I remember it.
In this weirdness, I call my friend Todd and tell him, I have a some news for you. I have been holding some things back that I have not been telling you. In other words I have secrets. Because I wanted to get things straight. [again this is still the daydream] 1) This weekend I am getting a car (Now other than it being a compact and automatic), I never say which car, whether it is new or used. from where or even a color. But I say yes I am still not 100% comfortable, I can't drive a shift yet and I am still uncomfortable driving certain kinds of vehicles or even any vehicle in certain circumstances yet, but I can drive now and that is cool. 2)Remember a while ago we talked about double dating? Well lets set it up. I have been dating this girl for a while. (Now I did mention a name but I forgot what it was. I do describe her a little, but I forgot how I described her, and say she was around my age (37)(I did not say what religion or race or hair color or eye color she is not that it matters, or say how long we have been dating or where I met her or if she has met anybody including family that I know yet)). But I did say that it is going good, and that I can safely say that I have a steady Girlfriend and that we do stuff that make you (Todd) and your Girlfriend (Fawn) (use exploitive deleted here with the sex stuff (Todd would know what I am talking about which would lead to a for fun contest about that stuff)), and that is without any stuff (again Todd knows what I am referring to), but I did mentioned that my GF and I did talk about using stuff and see how that goes and that I would talk to my Doctor for a prescription. [Again none of this is real. This is still the daydream]. Then I tell him 3)..... In a previous post here I mentioned some things about job stuff and that is what I talk about here. But because I might say something that in case somebody reads it while I am working where I am working, I won't say what I say about job stuff in the day dream to my friend Todd except to say That I mention that I now have an awesome schedule and I have enough hours and $$$ coming in that I don't have to worry about Money so much and I can now afford stuff. Not just any furniture or stuff for my place I want to buy or any technology stuff like this Netbook and or Camera that I have had my eyes on and stuff to build my new current specked gaming rig desktop, but to go on dates and concerts and movies and have fun at clubs and stuff without being outrageous. Then 4) I say not only is my place (and I am still living where I am living) clean but I am completely unpacked as much as I plan to be (which I am not right now) so I can invite my GF over, have parties within reason that are not like family oriented open hose where kids could be there, etc. Now at this point after telling Todd all this, because and I don't say how long this has taken place in other words how long I withheld this information from him, there is a pause so he can soak it all in, he says wow, and says about damn time. Good for you. I don't remember at this point what else Todd says, but some more wow type exploitive deleted stuff. All positive good things. Then my day dream ends while the call is going on after Todd says those things.
There is a line from the movie Bicentennial Man (if you have no idea what this movie is look it up, and I am not going to set the scene, just say the quote so look that up to), where Oliver Platt's Character says to Robin William's Character "Welcome to the human condition" Now Oliver's character was referring to something different and physical in the scene, but if this dream were true and I hope it does come true, then wow. Now the part about keeping this from my friend Todd until I have all this, I am not that way so I doubt that would happen if this dream were to come true and I hope it does, but if it does end up that way and Todd and I can still hang out while I keep all this a secret and drop this bomb (all 4 parts) on him at once (well at least 3 because he would have seen my place), then I would love to hear his reaction.
Now all this being said, to some people, a dream is a dream. Now some dreams feel so real you can taste it whether it was something you had while you were sleeping (REM or not), or a dream that you had as a daydream. This was one of those dreams that tasted real, whatever real tastes like.
I have a tendency to get overwhelmed very easily and then for me processes break down as I don't know what to do or where to go and ask for help? I am so overwhelmed that I don't even know what kind of help I need to ask for. Even if I am just working on one or two of these things.
Well somehow I need to get over that, because if I do, Then no matter how behind I am, no matter how long it takes, I can achieve all 4 things and make that call to my friend Todd.
So as the quote goes "What is the plan Stan?" I apologize to anybody named Stan and I am not asking people named Stan either. It is just an expression. I am still working on it so that what didn't work in the past, whatever I choose to do, I will make it work this time.
So if Todd ever reads this, all I can say is, I bet you can't wait and look forward to that phone call one day soon. For anybody else whomever you are that is reading this, when I make that call I most certainly will blog about it here or whatever I am using as a blog if I still have one at the time, and use the heading (it may not be these exact words but....)"I made a phone call....." (instead of I had a day dream) with the rest of the heading pending.
I hope I can blog that soon.
I have allot of people behind me and I appreciate that and will not take that for granted.
For now just keep on bloging.....